Wish me luck on my first day, tomorrow.

Everything regarding the past due rent issue has been resolved. In the meantime, we're trying to figure out WTF to do about catching up from the debt we're in now. I wish that when I said, "we", I meant both of my brothers and me, but the younger brother could care less since we fixed everything. I'm pretty sure my answer as to why he acts like that is in the previous statement.

Tomorrow morning I begin working with Starbucks @ The Hilton in downtown. I'm branching out, networking, and making friends. Starting an entirely new life here, away from everyone I knew in Oklahoma; it was once my greatest fear...

Not so much these days, now.

The earthquake I felt when my little piece of stability shook; followed by the aftershocks of anxiety? Uprooting my life again, due to a disaster out of my control? That deja vu was scarier than any feeling of homesickness I could have imagined..

"You're a strong woman", my friend Brandon told me last week. His statement stood out to me. People have used endearing terms AND hateful terms to describe me. But the word strong? I've never heard that one. It lead me to believe he truly meant what he said. I didn't make a big deal over it, but secretly, I was proud of myself.

Busy, busy weekend ahead with the Ft.Worth Arts Festival downtown. They're expecting 100,000 people to occupy the festival grounds, located on Main Street. Did I mention Starbucks was on Main Street too?

Wish me luck on my first day, tomorrow.

People think I changed just because my appeal has grown.
[Though I'm never actually alone--I just always feel alone.]
While my old friends think I got a new crowd.
And people seem to notice every time I do smile.
I guess that means they come few and far between.
Even though I'm living out what you would call the dream.